"I drank three glasses of scotch and ginger ale before we’d even cleared Coney Island. I didn’t want to come home. It was then that I decided to write you these letters." On a crisp winter day in New York, Willem gets the call. It’s Mum. Pauli’s died. Come back to Amsterdam. An unforgettable homecoming to an estranged family, a lost love, unsettling sex and an unexamined life.