Pol is 21 years old and lives with his grandmother. He dreams of living in Miami and generating over $10,000 per month. He attends personal development events, follows online coaches, and invests in cryptocurrencies. Pol doesn’t know when he’ll achieve his goals to become the best version of himself. The only thing he knows is that one day, he will.

In 2018, a user called AnathematicAnarchist published a suicide note in an online forum for incels – a subculture of heterosexual men whose self-pity, misogyny and fantasies of violence dominate the internet in many places and trigger offline actions in some. Did he really take his own life? Is America responsible for his death, as he claims in his text? A search for clues in the darkest corners of the net, an essay about pain and loneliness in the age of algorithms.