foreword: this was accomplished while watching and finished the second time i went through the season. somehow id like it to be in english and this is not a comment, its just a note.

E1 the encounter, the running in the hospital, the hug on the roof edge, the pink FAGGOT, a perfect beginning.

E2 Justin must have been so devastatedly in love with Brian when talking to Daphne on the wall in the campus. He knew clearly what he wanted when Brian told him to go get a girl and get married. And when Brian watched him drive off, there must have been some subtle tiny change that was slowly expanding in him.

E3 I’m sure I’m in love with Justin when he walked down the stairs taking his clothes off and then went onto the dance floor getting Brian as he wanted. Oh god Justin was Justin an angel sent from the sky. And I do wanna know what did Brian whisper to his prey.

E4 Don’t ask are you, cuz that not a question, just say I know, to let him know you never stopped loving him.

E5 I’m kinda like that chiropractor who always liked to say tricky compliments and make the other a little awkward.

E6 At GLC when Justin happily asked a woman there ‘you can tell I’m gay?’ It suddenly occurred to me that the initial proud lying inside him is what I love him for. And the love for Justin lies inside Brian’s heart feeding on him without him realising — his buying the drawing explained everything.

E7 it always bothers me that why there are so fucking loads of homophobia parents? How did this come into being? And why did they have to press their anger that comes from ignorance on their children with excuses like love or care or other bullshit? Fuck em and fuck homophobia, such group of people should be extinct by now.

E8 Justin’s father’s been always childish and naive, how could a man of his age act so immature? While Justin never let me down, he knew well. Standing up against such shit takes courage, and for me, I shall do the same. And this time the jambalaya made Justin closer to Brian, or say, Brian closer to Justin. Tracy was a good girl and the way Michael treated her is not what I approve of.

E9 Brian can’t really get over the ‘father issue’ like Michael had done. Having one and getting over it was so much harder than having nothing at all. Same to Brian and Gus.

E10 Road trip to New York, the metropolis with all modernity and history, always be my longing destination. Justin staying in Pittsburg or not completely depended on Brian, being in love with a playboy, or say prince, is his fate and he was meant to be with him.

E11 I figured among all roles only Justin truly embraced himself as who he is while being proud of it, which made him an ideal example for us gay people all this time. Sex comes with danger, and love comes with depression. We are living in the middle trying so hard to hold on to the slim chance of getting away while enjoying ourselves. Michael lacked smartness and David lacked childishness. Brian saw through all except himself.

E12 You’d seen the light my ass! Those stupid ignorant homosexuals who don’t know what they really are should just step out the zone and keep hiding themselves cuz they don’t qualify to be a gay. Well I can say that Michael and Brian were curses to each other. And I have always liked the jokes Ted told.

E13 the obsession gay people have for bodies muscle and sex is really unbelievable — just as David say in later episode. I still wanna say that it is truly pathetic that u don’t accept who you are or doubt the self you truly are. And don’t count on anyone, that’s what b1tches do. When you have found someone you think you can spend the rest of your life with, I think, boringness strikes and sometimes you just want to get away — the get-away costs huge.

E14 Justin & Brian dancing in Babylon could be another ‘best’ of mine. God created us the way he wanted us to be, hence no need to doubt who you’d been born to be. Every opinion that claims changing into heterosexual leads to a better life predetermines that homos are inferior to heterosexual, this is pathetic. I have a strong sense in mind that despite what I will be in the future, I wanna open a course in university that teaches the history of gay rights movements.

E15 I would probably punch him in the face if my dad suddenly showed up to take me to places like David. We are being so self-centred even when we think we are standing in other’s shoes, which reveals a fact that knowing others empathetically seldom works out and is barely possible.

E16 His braveness his proudness were what distinguished him from all of his friends— he was young, and he was reckless, and he knew what he was doing and most importantly, he knew exactly who he was and what he was going to be. Justin’s war had just begun. Gay rights movements is a long long journey.

E17 while this episode is badly composed (Michael being a sudden bitch), the part for senator is great. The initial sin of Michael is he was no smart and un-narcissism. Sad for him misfortune, angry for his settlement.

E18 Justin lost himself for the first time but he retrieved himself successfully — I finally know my official and personal reasons to say why I want to get into the college of foreign language — the joy that studying literature brings me can never rival that of translating, joyousness is what you need to push you through it. When Justin printed his confirmation, saw the coat hanging there, drew it down on the back of that confirmation, he got closer to himself really. Btw I really hate crisis of confidence, I don’t want any kind of misunderstanding. I have always felt good about Blake, however… （I believe that the filming group or say the writers did have a thing about Michael, or he wouldn’t be so dumb and bitchy, though I had liked him a lot) Maybe, in my opinion, Justin so believed in love and all forms of love should not be tore apart. His parents’ marriage’s break was the first shock on his faith in love. He was young and he believed in love, though the world ahead could be so damaging but I believe he could manage.

E19 Love means tolerance. And I trust Blake. Brian’s enrichment made him distinguished. Daphne perhaps was in love with Justin long, but she couldn’t even say it cuz he would never be hers.

E20 Gay people’s ‘almost pathological obsession with youth, beauty and smooth, muscular bodies’ is the curse, so is ‘getting old’. This is us. Oh Justin, the highest form of being a gay that I can imagine.

E21 if I got a job in NYC and I were in Pittsburg I think I would recklessly leave everything behind and chase my dream. Everybody hates their town, yet isn’t ready to let go all the time. This is a distant film and I’ll have to approve for Brian’s decision though he didn’t actually get that job, though Justin really loved him so much. And maybe this is the point where the love expanded so fast that it was nearly sorrow soon. Once you’ve decided you are going to pursuit yourself, there’s nothing supposed to hold you back. Brian knew it well.

At first when I was so addicted to the characters’ love life I thought I would be so heartbroken if anything happened to tear it apart, but on and on I grew to know that something matters more than love life, which is to fulfil yourself with your true identity, that is, Justin going to art school, Michael being Michael again, and Brian remembering the day he first met Justin.

I have to admit that Justin ain’t that handsome, but he still was the one dream person because of his confidence and charm and recklessness and his being himself.

We are never getting the perfect one thus have to make the second perfect one great enough to rival the first.

What should I say after all, it was like I’ve been brought back to twenty years ago to enjoy, or say, lurking in the corner see how gays be like then and I must say it’d be my longed odyssey for quite a while. Every time I saw Justin with his gorgeously indecent smile on his face I got hit and realise how ideal and egoistic you can actually make your life be like. Well, I can say, that’s the way I have always looked forward to and desire to live.

E22 Hometown is a curse and nobody gets away with it.

Justin was so surreal.

Tragic is what tears beautiful thing apart right in front of you.

I guess I was wrong about my primary judgement, a tragic could be the death of love, the death of a person or the death of a dream. Apparently, Justin survived, of course he must have — on the most beautiful night he had with Brian, after their kiss-goodbye. The season ended this way making me even sadder than Brian not showing up or Michael & David breaking up — cuz it would have been just imperfect then, but the desire we have to be perfect had made us all broken up, but it’s what we be like — it just meant that we, gays, queers, faggots or whatever you call, failed on the fundamental basis — the dream dies, in some ways, like the cinema being torn down, like Justin falling to the ground.

I empathise most with Michael, I hesitate, I get angry, I cling to the past, I don’t let go, I be jealous, I be vulnerable, I be unconfident, I be cocky, I be bitchy, and I love, I care, I live, I desire, I am.

I love Justin over any other characters in the show, like I love loving someone recklessly, like I love chasing perfection, like I love being a dreamer and step by step making illusions come true, like I love being the ray of the sun, even if it’s just as big as a heart that I have shed my light on.

The more I know about us, the longer the way I realise there is for us to walk through.

The powerful play goes on, and you may contribute a verse.